This next post was GOING to be of Mini-Meek 2's first ultrasound pictures. That's right...TWO...Annie was about to move over and make some room in her nest -- for we had her baby brother or sister on the way, due to arrive early December of 2010. It was a bit of a surprise (I've never understood how such things can be a "surprise"...but now I can say I do. ;) While another baby has always been part of the plan, this was a little sooner than we thought, but we quickly became accustomed to the idea of two close playmates and the house getting a little more snug by Christmas. Taking for granted that the last time we were pregnant...it ended with Annabelle's appearance - we were quick to tell close family and friends. I ran right out and got Annie her first "Big Sister" shirt (which by the way, the smallest I could find was a 2T...for an 8 month old baby...)
In addition to the usual pregnancy lifestyle changes (there went my martini)...we had previously decided that during the next pregnancy I would take on Annie's galactosemic diet, as a precaution, in case this next baby was also galactosemic (the odds are 1 in 4 for another galactosemic). So, quite by surprise, and all in the blink of an eye (or a positive pregnancy test) I became seriously sober and essentially galactosemic. ;) It was a quick crash course in the diet that's for sure -- and also what prompted us to be so forthcoming with the news... It was one thing if I passed up a drink, it was another if I passed up anything with dairy, soy, tomatoes, etc...
So we got excited, we got the granny's excited...and last Friday myself, Daddy and big-sister-in-the-making, Annie, all piled into the Doctor's office to get our first glimpse at this new baby (which I had decided was most certainly a boy, or twins...you know, mother's intuition this time around ;)....only to ultimately find out that we do not have a viable pregnancy. I think we all knew as soon as we saw the big empty circle on the ultrasound screen...this isn't the same. (After all, it wasn't that long ago at all that we saw Annie there, so we knew what to expect.) There's a placenta forming, but no embryo - ie. no baby...to make a long story short.
I expected to be devastated...and I've heard before how hard miscarriages are - but as soon as I saw the empty screen, I think I processed the information pretty mater-of-factly and quickly turned my attention to Annabelle across the room. She was busy babbling, completely unaware that she had gone from big sister, to lone queen of the castle in a matter of minutes... Thank God they were there. No baby news...is much easier to swallow, when you already have a baby to love on. While we would have embraced #2 in December - and enjoyed every moment of two very close babies...we have a new chance now...to get a little better prepared.
We'll take this opportunity to research the galactosemic pregnancy diet a bit more. We'll have more time to give Annie all the undivided attention she deserves. Mommy will take this opportunity to throw back some summer cocktails, sign up for the Chicago Half Marathon, and generally enjoy summer before returning to incubation mode sometime soon :)
For those of you who have followed our short "pregnancy" all this time, thanks so much for your support. I can't believe the amount of calls and emails I received from so many of you who have gone through this very sort of thing. We have the best family and friends - and everythings gonna be just fine :)
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